Wait

Waiting too long spoils almost everything.



It makes every day longer and meaningless. "Have a nice day!" is a bye-bye thing which is on the tip of one's tongue, yet you can't believe it anymore when what you're waiting for hasn't shown up. Yesterday wasn't nice, neither is today, nah, it's a no-no. It is exhausting and you just don't even bother anything or anyone around you. At all.



It makes you think. Yeah, you're getting more miserable merely because you think too much. When will it come? When? When? When? This goes on and on, and even it intrudes into your dreams. "Damn it! I can't have even a minute of peace in a day," you mumble when waking up in the middle of the night.



It makes you feel lost. Right, you don't know where you're going and how your life is gonna be. It is too big a challenge that not only once have you thought that you can't handle it. You're overwhelmed, and on your toes, you wonder about in the dark, with your hands reachin' out to find a door. You don't know, do you? Lost and alone, you think you failed. Yet that never helps you out, subsequently you stand up and continue. Till now, you haven't found the way out, you know for sure you have to on your own, though you're still often feeling down.



If waiting is that unpleasant, why waiting? Well, when waiting you have a hope. Though a hope might forever be a hope, you're probably on track. A belief might mislead you, but a hope keeps you alive.