Tet is on my doorstep, knockin' on the door with a smile.
I'm here inside, hands trembling & heart throbbing.
What was behind my original plan has now changed. Work is up to my ears. After all, the mood is just not right.
Still I'll have to take the flight.
Group leader: T
Group members: U, V, W, X, Y, Z
Group rules:
- Be puntual
- Be responsible
- Attend all meetings
- If absent, state reasonable excuses
- Blah blah blah
- Not be a free rider
Note: A free rider is a group member who doesn't follow the group rules
Penalty: depending on the level of free riding
If you agree with all the terms, pls sign below.
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And I signed 
* This is a project group in NKS - National Kindergarten of Singapore. The contract is composed by the group leader and signed by group members. No teacher is involved. Phe'p vua thua le^. la`ng.
To someone who used to eat leaves... This photo I took...
To where you are ... This song I am sending...
Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory's so clear
Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are my forever love
And you are watching over me
From up above
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for a while
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me
Everyday
'Cos you are my forever love
Watching me from up above
And I believe that angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
...
To you far away up high
I've just realized that love and care are two different things. Not even close.
There are times when you care for someone but you don't love him. Love with its most basic meaning, I mean. Right, just a strategy to reach your personal goals, perhaps.
There are times when you love but you don't care enough. That sounds unreasonable, but things do happen for reasons. Selfishness can win sometimes, unexpectedly.
I wonder whether we always tend put our ego first? Is there a so-called selfless good deed? Is there a love where you care for others more than yourself (not always though, to be practical)? Have you ever hated yourself as much as I do now...
What are the colors in life that you can see?
You think love is red. Love can be grey if you lose yourself and are too dependent on it.
You think peace is blue. Blue might have been mixed with red and black, with love and hate, with deaths and lives, with happiness and tears before peace is achieved.
And you think black is black. In fact, you will find any bright color in black if you believe you can. You can turn things around if you don't surrender. You can find luck somewhere after mishaps if you have faith. Black wouldn't be black by then. What will follow depends on your faith.
Life is a spectrum of colors.
... to the Tet holiday!
In my situation, staying here definitely wouldn't be a good plan to celebrate the Lunar New Year. It was just fun to be here every year on this occasion, but the sacred and indescribable feeling when we usher in the new year was nowhere to be found...
Mmm...
Despite the fact that it's been raining almost non-stop for the last 6 days 
Despite the fact that tomorrow is Fri the 13th...
... I'm glad that I have sth to look forward to, with joy and excitement...
My Tet holiday back home after 3 yrs 
Study-a-holic? Not really my type. Smiling though...
God knows why 
Gonna talk nonsense here for the sake of talking nonsense...
Things didn't turn out right at the beginning of the year. 2, 3 pieces of bad news came in a row, which made me sometimes feel as if I'd been so exhausted that I was about to fall. But everyday would be the same if you didn't mean to make it different.
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An evening spent shopping wasn't bad. I'd never liked shopping at all, and I'd remained the same even though others told me it was weird when a girl didn't like shopping (?!). Things may change when you're upset. Right, walking aimlessly in a sea of unknown people helped me think that I was really doing sth else but sitting alone & suffering from depression.
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Walking in the rain, with mud splashing onto the feet, may not sound crazy at times. After all, it was sth different that kept me from thinking about the bad stuff.
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Burying yourself in books might be better than 'sticking' your life to the computer. Books have their own world that the Internet, with wateva vivid stuff it offers, won't ever be able to create. A morning running between seemingly countless bookshelves would bring you to a world of silent interests.
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Just took a test sent by a friend today: "What's your true color?". The result showed:
You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!
I'm old (lu. khu.) enough to know that every color it states would sound wonderful. In the end, the test is meant to encourage people & help them find confidence in themselves. It sounds flattering to me, but sometimes we human do like hearing flattering words though we know for sure it really is flattery. Ridiculously, they make me feel good at this very short moment. Did I just say the aim of the test is...? Well, it does its job.
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Ultimately, everyday wouldn't be the same if you don't want it to be. Things didn't turn out right, but I'm gonna make 'em right. It's time I was ga^'u again.
May it be a year of transparency.
Hope to understand certain things that still remain unanswered.
[Taken on 01/01/06]
